Happy Birthday to me

One more year.
One less year.
Happy.
Sad.
Not sure how to feel.
All I know is that time keeps going.

Meat

I wish I could cry.
I wish I could shed a tear.
I wish I could feel some pain.
Just a bit of sadness because you're not here.

Step out of this world.
Join you by your side.
Say my final words.
Release my last goodbye.

Missing our talks,
and the jokes that made me laugh.
Remembering the stuff we never did,
finally starts to make me sad.

It's hard to think you're gone.
It's hard to say goodbye.
I wish it never happened.
I wish you were still alive.

 - Layla Lockdown



I miss you Jonathon! R.I.P!

Just some thinking going on.....

So, we already figured out that loneliness is what triggers my depression into coming back. So that's what I'm trying to avoid. This is why the choice of moving out sounds like a good one.

Becca said I can live with her. Actual seriousness too. I want that. The Bowen house is what I need. I need that restriction. A bedtime, someone to make me study & do my homework. Friends and caring people around me all the time.

Let's hope this happens.

I guess I feel like blogging about my thoughts on you guys lately.

Becca Bowen - Lately you've been the bestest friend I can ever ask for. We seem to be spending a whole lot of time together lately and we might even live together soon. I'm really hoping that works out. You seem to be the one who always makes me happy lately and I love your family. I wish my mom was like yours. I'm lucky to have you as....well...a sister.

Heather Bradshaw - Lately, me & you keep getting into fights. That's so unlike us. We seem to be drifting this year, it's quite upsetting. It seems that texting is the only way to get to you. I know most of it is because you have Timmy now and other friends, but still. Can we please try and stop with all the drama??? lol Ilys.

Kaitlyn Miller - Girl, I don't even know. Me & you got close real quick. We seem to mesh well I guess. I hope to become best friends with you this year. :)

Jason Szkapi - I love you way too much to ever try and hurt you or get mad at you. I hate that.

Megan Bates - Babe, you crazy & I love it! You make my days in 3rd & 4th period! I can't wait to save lives with you!

Mom - I love you and I always will. You're my mom. But living with you is not for me. I need a better environment.

Bowens - All of you, even you Raymond (even though you're not a Bowen) are amazing. This family is crazy & i love every part of it. :)

David McCarty - I love you so much bgf. Nuff said.

Dustin Sheppard - You're such a douche sometimes, but I love you anyways :)

So tonight was a night of mixed emotions. But as long as I'm strong, I can get through it. :)

My childhood lol

Jimi Hendrix is orgasmic

.:*blah*:.
How tall are you?	5 foot 1
Do you like bananas?	Yeppers
What is your favorite song of all time?	Numb by Linkin Park
What do you do on Fridays?	Hang with someone
Flip flops or sandals?	Flip Flops
Vitamin Water or Gatorade?	Vitamin Water
Have you had a beer in the past week?	Nope.
If you could have one super human power, what would you choose?	Shapeshifting
What is your favorite place?	Any place with my friends
Do you read Harry Potter books?	Not anymore..I don't re-read books
What is your favorite food?	Cereal lol
Where do you want to travel next?	Somewhere with my friends....Miami or Panama or somewhere
What is your favorite PJ fabric?	Umm....depends lol
Boat or bus?	Boat
Walking past a beggar, spare change or ignore?	Ignore
Do you shower every single day?	No
Kill the spider or let it out?	Kill it
What is your favorite TV show?	Boy Meets World...Degrassi...Dexter...so many lol
Do you eat cold cereal at night?	Yes!
Define yourself in 3 words?	Honest. Non-judgemental. Trustworthy.
Would you rather be blind or death?	Blind
Are you a cat or a dog person?	Cat....I'm too lazy for a dog
Which is worse? A bad laugh or a bad cough?	laugh
Favorite fruit?	Uh......grapes & starfruit
Juice and crackers or milk and cookies?	Milk & Cookies
Who are you going to vote for in 2008?	I'm young...I didn't vote
Firefox, Internet Explorer, Netscape or other?	Google Chrome
What was your last thought?	I'm so hungry
Favorite element?	Hmm air or earth
Where is Waldo?	In between my legs
Do you support Paris?	Ehh
Why did the chicken cross the road?	To come be my dinner
Your favorite Disney films?	Beauty & the Beast, Lion King, & Hercules
If you had to pick one car, which would it be?	Rapist Van
Most embarrassing moment?	There's quite a bit lol
Most memorable past?	Yoo Hoo every morning with my Dad
What is your favorite clothing brand?	I don't have one lol
Opera, Musical, Concert, Play, Performance, or Other?	Concert
Favorite Place to Eat?	Buffets
Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?	Hmm.....arm
Would you rather be hot or cold?	cold
T-Mobile, U.S. Cellular, Cingular/AT&T, or Sprint/Nextel?	AT&T
Water or 100% Juice?	100% Juice
What size shoe do you wear?	IDK...like 6??
How do you feel?	Okay :)
Romance or Kinky Sex?	BOTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get the number or give the number?	get
When do you plan on getting married?	When I'm sure I'm ready
Do you have any tattoos, and if so what and where?	None yet
Who do you admire most?	Myself lol jk
Do you own any pets, and if so what do you have?	Cats. 3 of them.
Where do you see yourself in five years?	College
If you had only six months to live, what would you do first?	Have Sex
What is your favourite word?	Awesome
If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?	Greece or Canada
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